Little Birdie

I am in love with these little birdie stamps from Hero Arts. They are really small and cute. The size of the card is 3x3. I made a ton of these to give to people at work when they are having a bad day or when they do something that needs a little more than a verbal thank you. Sorry the picture is fuzzy. I took a ton of them and they all have that fuzzy look. I desperately need a new camera... maybe after payday.

The One Where My Son Eats a Lemon

"Hey Baby Boy, What are you doing?"
"I am eating a lemon!"
"What? Lemons dont taste good."

"I want to try it! I like lemons! Its a fruit!"

"Ok, go ahead but I am telling you it wont taste good."

"Iiiiickkkkk! this is horrible, I hate it! Why did you make me eat this lemon?"

Middle Aged

Yeah... I officially reached it today. I can not believe I am this old... those older than me assure me its not old at all... but I know the truth. I settled on this number as "OLD" when I was in highschool... and I stand by it! Whats your official "OLD" number?

Secret Messages

So FunDaddy in a fit of craziness decided that he wanted to build the children a playhouse. He is capable of this, he is quite good with building except that it takes about a year and a half to finish anything. Also the "thing" must be grand in scale. Like my daughters bed. Gorgeous, a thing of beauty really... however it takes up nearly her entire room. So this little playhouse... yeah he chalked it out yesterday on the grass... people it is ginormous. But I held my tongue.

I get home from work and FunDaddy announces he must go to the store and buy lumber for the castle...umm I mean house. So off he goes... 1.5 hours later he isnt back yet. I am thinking he must of had an accident or something. So I call him. Below a transcript of our conversation. (all items in parenthesis are my own translations of what I feel his 'secret' message is) All of his parts should be read in a raised voice tinged with panic and complete irritation.

FD: "what?"
Me: oh good you are alive
FD: I cant get this wood in the van! It doesnt fit! The *$%#@ is too small (Gawd dammit woman why did you make me sell my truck?)
Me: oh
FD: I told you it wont fit! This is crazy! Now I have to buy rope! (I want my truck! who cares if I couldnt take the kids in it! I want it back!)
Me: sorry I thought something happened to you
FD: I had to buy rope! Its not working. I have to drive with the tailgate up! (this is your fault! you made me sell my truck!!)
Me: ok is there something i can do to help?
FD: No! I have to use this rope, that i had to buy, ok? (I told you nothing but a new truck will fix this!)
Me: ok then... oh look my phones dying! bye!


FTR, I did not make him sell the truck I simply told him we couldnt afford the ins. on all three vehicles and really we barely used the truck, plus it was constantly breaking down. he sold it himself to some guy who had a landscaping business.

Anyhow, secret messages... things we arent saying but its so clear we are.

A tisket, a tasket, a Michaels Easter Basket

Michaels had these cute wooden baskets for a buck. I covered it with paper (Doodlebug). Then I added some baubles and a prima. It went fairly quickly. The hardest part was cutting the paper, especially since the wooden egg is already adhered to the basket. I wanted to line the inside but it was just too difficult for the amount of patience I had today. So I am thinking maybe I will put some fancy tissue in it. If I were to do it again I would paint the inside before adhereing any paper.

I got nothing to say except....

Happy Leap Day!!! I couldn't miss my chance to publish on February 29th!!! Its suppose to be sunny and 70 here today so I am a happy girl!

You Can't See Me... I'm Camouflaged!

This picture cracks me up! I had to buy the girl the camo clothing for a school assignment (they were studying animal camouflage.) and of course the boy then needed the same thing. So now I have two kids running around looking like jr. soldiers. Its so funny to look at. The boy even has camouflaged shoes. He requested camo underwear as well! As much as kids (or grown adults) say they hate (hated) being dressed like their siblings my two love it! Of course there isnt a lot of matching clothing available for a couple kids of opposite sexes and three years age difference but I try.

More Scrappin'

Another page made with my HG kit. I love this kit (actually I bought two, similar but not the same). I still can not believe the deal I got.

Tiger

This is my cat Tiger. He found me one day and insisted on being let in the house... that was about three years ago. He sheds more than any cat I have ever had. And now it seems shedding on my clothes while I am wearing them isnt good enough. Now he wishes to shed all over my clothes before I even put them on! I guess this will teach me to leave my armoire open in the morning.

New Layout and Randomness

I broke into my new Heidi Grace kit, ya know the one I got for a steal at Tuesday Morning? I had fun playing with all the scrappy goodness inside. My craft table is a mess! But I didnt want to clean it up because I know I am just going to mess it up again today.
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I often wonder what its like to be in the mind of a child. Here is an actual conversation between me and the boy last night:
Boy: I love you Mommy!
Me: I love you too!
Boy: I love you soo soo much!
Me: I love you to the moon and beyond!
Boy: It snows in Antarctica every day! What will happen if it stops?
Me: The snow will melt?
Boy: I really like monkeys.

A New Card

I just got my new stamps from papertreyink. Oh how I love them. I didn't even really like to stamp until I found these... but I digress. I made this card for Lois. I read about Lois here. I think its amazing how quickly these crafters pulled together to pledge 100 cards for Lois and then send them out... and it took mere days. Sometimes I find that the internet is an amazing thing.... what did we do before Al Gore invented it? (Yes, I know he didnt really invent it... but hey he wants credit... )

Back to the card, Papertrey stamps, papertrey paper, and papertrey ribbon and ink. Oh and stickles...can't have a card without stickles.

I just love a man in a sweater vest!

My kid picked that outfit out for himself at the store. A few days before Valentine's he informed me that he had a party to go to and that he had no "handsome" clothes. He begged me to take him to the store for "handsome" clothes and "fancy" pants. So we went to Target (only the finest for my boy). We looked through rack after rack of clothes when he saw this sweater vest combo. He insisted on owning it. How could I resist? Fundaddy thinks I should have resisted. Fundaddy does not think real men wear sweater vests. But just when FunDaddy was about to have a break down over the vest, the boy piped up and said, "Don't you think the girls will like me in this Daddy? Don't I look cute?" Suddenly FunDaddy felt all better.

Saving Money!

Look at all this scraplicious yummy stuff I scored at Tuesday Morning! Never am I this lucky! I got two Heidi Grace Paper kits, full of delicious paper, chipboard, stickers, and alphas. I got 3 boxes of rub ons, a bunch of assorted bling, lots of cute stickers. And all this for a mere 35 dollars! Yes, I understand those of you who are not craft addicts are probably thinking this is a ridiculous sum to be spent on paper and stickers... but I assure you this is an awesome deal. You could spend 30 dollars on just one of those paper packs. I figure I have saved FunDaddy at least 40 dollars here. He should be thanking me (He's not, but he should be). He should thank his lucky stars I am addicted to craft projects and not something much worse... like designer handbags.

Birthday Cards

I made these with Mike's one dollar studio G stamps! What a bargain. It was my first time watercoloring the images... I used water color pencils.... that I had bought in highschool (lets just say that was years, years ago!

Just Can't Party Like I Used Too....

I have to face the fact that I can't drink, dance, and party all night and then be any good the next day. There were times in college (which honestly was only about 10...ok closer to 15years ago) that I could drink and drink and then be up and happy by 9 am the next day. This is no longer the case. I had maybe 3 drinks, I was only there until midnite, and this morning I feel like I was hit by a mack truck. Yah, I think mayhaps the body is slowing down and the rest of me needs to follow suit!

Having a Girl Just Paid Off....

I have passed on my nagging abilities. My girl nagged her daddy into buying her mommy jewelry for Valentine's day. Yes she did. Oh I am so proud! So yes, ladies I, who have received a pillow as an anniversary present, was presented with a lovely heart shaped diamond pendant and chocolates yesterday. I was blown away (seeing how my presents are usually bought at 2 am at the local Walgreens). And I come to find out I owe it to my baby girl for reminding FunDaddy (that is Mr. Iamderby's new code name) that Mommy would like some diamonds please, over and over again.

Moving on from Valentine's day I am faced with another three day weekend (YIPPEE!!!). It also appears that we will have no houseguests so I can lay around and do nothing all day... ok, not really true, I will have to clean and watch the children but still its better than get up at 5 am and head to work. Hope you all have a fabulous weekend!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day! I have a love/ hate relationship with this day. I love it because I teach and at elementary school Valentines rules! There is always a party, always cookies and candy, always cute little cards and excited kids! So that part is totally cool. I used to love to get all romantic with the hubby too... but he... well he is the most unromantic person in the world. This is not to say he is a bad husband, because he is an amazing husband, but romantic? no not at all... i mean this man once bought me a pillow for our 8 year anniversary. He hates V day. Its like torture for him each year. i try to be helpful but really he is just suffering. So I always hope for some grand gesture (well even not so grand gesture) and then I usually end up with the token bizarre gift.... that he bought the night before... at 2am.... So it would just be smart for me to stop hoping wouldnt it? yeah it would. So why cant I? I dunno, a glutton for punishment I guess.

Anyhow I hope your Valentine's Day is full of awesome surprises.

More Valentine Goodies

These are what I am working on for my coworkers for Valentine's Day. I have made them with many different kinds of paper and embellishments but the ones in the picture are made with cardstock, Mike's studio G stamps and loads of stickles. I love stickles! Glitter glue for adults, whats not to like? I got the pattern for the box here. I really recommend Sonja's blog. She does lots of cool stuff. Inside the box are three Hershey's nuggets. They are covered with labels that I stamped with the label stamp set from Papertrey Ink

V-Day Card

Made this up today. I really love the way it turned out. I cannot say enough good things about the stamps from Papertrey ink. They are amazing!!! Makes even a nonstamper like me look good.

My Husband's Idea of a Great Day at the Bay

Mr. IamDerby does not take weather into consideration when planning a trip. I am lucky those kids even had jackets with them. I stayed home because I do not like to freeze to death. When they came home the children's shoes were soaked! FunDaddy lets them jump and splash in puddles. FunDaddy lets them play in the freezing rain. NotsofunMommy doesnt allow these kinds of things especially when she knows a soaking wet 2 hour car ride back home is involved. Yeah its probably a good thing I stayed home.

Are you a hippie?

You Are Definitely Not a Hippie

In fact, you're so conservative, you make George Bush look like Jerry Garcia. You're not big on experimentation or alternative lifestyles. Fringe ideas tend to freak you out. You're pretty suspicious of hippies - or anyone who sympathizes with them. As hippies would say, you are the establishment. You're part of the system... and proud of it.

Are You a Hippie?

Yeah I gots to say I dont agree with this! The last word I would use to describe myself is conservative.... but I dont like drugs, I get my hair cut every two months (colored too!) and I love money (if I could have unlimited funds...yeah I would go for that). FTR I do need to say I am a registered democrat and I cannot remember the last time I voted out of my party for a republican... although I have voted for independents before.

Somebody Likes Me!!

Tommie gave me this cute little piece of blog bling. It's my very first one and I {heart} it very much. I am suppose to pass it along... but as I went to all my regular reads this morning it appears they already have my much loved blog bling. So I will just say head over to my blogroll if you are looking for good stuff. All those ladies rock. I enjoy having my tea with them every morning.

UPDATE ON THE SWEATSHOP: I was informed by my offspring that its a hotel they are running not a sweat shop. They are charging 500$ a night and people with names like Mixie, Swinger, and Pounder are working there. Perhaps I should be afraid.

Are my kids running a sweat shop?

Take a look at these pictures! First off I thought this was my property?! Guess not. And whats up with the night watch? I am up half the night and I haven't seen anyone patrolling. There sure are a lot of workers, I am kind of wondering what they are up to. I asked my kids but because I wasn't in possession of the secret password no one would answer my questions. Perhaps I need to hire an investigator.

I'm It!

I've been tagged by tina.. This means that I have to tell you seven interesting things about me. Well I don't know if they will be interesting, but here they are:

1. I bake very well, people at work fight over my cookies.

2. I walk in my sleep, talk too.

3. I am a type 1 diabetic... completely insulin dependent, it scares me.

4. I have only lived in two different cities.

5. I love country music.

6. I work out 4x a week...but still manage to retain all my fat.

7. I was proposed too four different times (by four different guys). Twice I was offered a ring. The fourth time I accepted, we have been married for 12.5 years.

Now my turn to tag... I hope you play along. The directions are easy... list 7 interesting things about you and then tag some more bloggers:) Here are the my tags.

Cheeky
and ummm anyone else who stops by to read this... let me know if you played!

RAK WINNER!!

Congratulations to Tommie! You were drawn by my dd. So email your snail mail addy to me at derbylea at mac dot com and I will get your prizes out to you. Thanks to everyone who left me a comment. You guys rock!

Valentine RAK

One lucky reader will win a set of sparkle gel stickers by cloud9 and a great set of cardstock tab stickers also by Cloud9. Here is what you do... leave me a little comment on this post before Sunday 9:00am (PST) morning (February 3, 2007). I will randomly draw a name from all the comments. Thats it! Good luck! (oh and I am only willing to ship to USA or Canada...so for my random visitor from Malaysia, I am so sorry but I have got to keep my costs down).

Why?

Why is it whenever anyone asks you if they can talk to you for a second they really mean 15 minutes?
Why is it whenever my principal brings someone to visit my class its during my lunch 30 minutes (yeah no hour here)?
Why is it whenever my kid has to take a dump we are at Target, or in the car, or at Walmart?
Why is it whenever it is raining my kid decides that flipflops are the perfect and only shoe apparel he (or she) will wear?
Why is it no matter how often I instruct my students to listen to my instructions at least three students need to hear it four more times? (And just why is it that if I say ok you can play games, they all hear me the first time?)
Why is it on days I actually have time to read the paper it never arrives?
Why is it ants only invade the house while my husband is at work?
Why is it my kids seem to think they own my computer and I should be asking them for permission to use it?

Just some thoughts randomly passing through my head today.... Any similar thoughts going through yours?

PS. I have decided to give away some craft items this Friday (apparently I cant stop shopping, its a sickness)... a RAK... Free Friday! So check back in and feel free to spread the word.

I am not afraid!

I have this guy to protect me!

52 layouts/Photos week 4

Im slacking. I did a LO this weekend, but I used old pictures. My new pictures are trapped on my hard drive until I can print. I am having issues. So anyway here is my new LO with my old photos and also some new photos from this week. I love these pics of my kids. They were playing babies. The girl was the mom, the boy was the dad (yes I have told them brothers and sisters dont marry! lol) and they had 13 babies. Anyway they were cracking me up.

Why Arent You Laughing??

So my boy comes in the room this evening. I looked up at him but truth be told I was giving the computer the majority of my attention. The boy says, "Hey how come kids dont work in restaurants?"
My reply "Huh?"
The Boy: "Why dont kids work in restaurants?"
Me: "uuhhhhh i dunno?"
The Boy: "Because Kids dont work!!!" Boy falls down with laughter, boy continues laughing. Boy looks up. Boy speaks: "Why arent you laughing?"
Me: "huh? I'm confused"
Boy: "its funny mama, laugh!"
Husband yelling from other room: "He is telling you a joke!"
Me: wha???
Boy: Laugh mama!!
Me: makes small laughing sounds, still completely confused.
Boy: I will be back to tell you more jokes in a minute. I have to go make them up, these are my OWN jokes, mama
Me: ::Thinking::: your own? no kidding. LOL

And so I sit waiting for my humor impaired child to come back and tell me some more jokes.

I Got Nothin'....

Nothing but ants!!! All over my freaking house! Everytime I turn around I am cleaning up ants... not just a few either I am talking gazzillions (I am sure thats a number.)! They are everywhere. The more it rains (we are going on our 5th day straight) the more ants suddenly decide my casa es su casa. Its driving me nuts. Thank God its the weekend because I cant stand another day of getting up at 5:30am and then whipping out the raid and vacuum to take care of more unwanted guests. So on Saturday that crap can wait until 7am!

Things that make me curse!

That would be 3 pounds of powdered sugar on my floor. The top came off of my rubbermaid container. It was a new container... I would not recommend purchasing this brand at all. It was a huge feat to clean this mess up. I am not proud to say that I let loose with a string of very bad words in front of my little guy. I do suspect he was trying not to laugh at me. I was acting like a two year old...but omg it was such a huge mess and I was already exhausted.

More Mailboxes

These are the two I made for my kids. I tried to make the boy's a bit less girly. I think he will like it. I had a little accident with the flags. I had been popping them off because it was so much easier to cover the box. Well when I went to put them back on they wouldnt go. So I popped out the rivet and used a nice jewelled brad to hold the flag in place. Its a little loose but they still stand up fine and now they are prettier so I guess it was a happy accident. I am out of mailboxes so I guess its back to scrapbook pages.

52 week update... I have the pics, I have layout... but I am having printing issues to get the pic on the layout.... so technically I am done, I just need to print the pics and then post it...hopefully later this week.

Target Mailboxes

These are altered mailboxes from Target. There is a learning curve I believe when it comes to these things! It was much harder than I thought it would be!! There is great tutorial here. I will say I find it much easier to just pull the flag off then to try and go around it. I have had no problems reattaching the flag. I find it easier to use a liquid glue (I use tombow aqua adhesive), it makes it easier to slide the paper a bit and get it straight. These two boxes will be given to my kids' teachers for Valentine's Day. I think we will fill them with cookies or chocolate. Yum! I kind of wish I had bought a few more mailboxes (I bought six, but they are so fun to do!)

A Little Rant...

Ok, so I am still sick. Its a curse I have... I never get sick enough to stay home, just sick enough to feel and look crappy and yet be able to put in a full days work. All week I have been craving (and I mean CRAVING) oatmeal cookies (homemade no store bought crap) and yet I have been feeling too crappy to pull out the mixer and make some. So all day at work I dream of oatmeal cookies and then I get home, feed the children, read to them, play with them (ok ok we watch wheel of fortune together but HEY i am sick) put them to bed and then... its cookie time...but no cause now I am about to fall down dead... so instead of cookies I get half a bottle of nyquil then I crash out until 5 am when i get it up to do it all over again.

Side Note: Its probably a good thing I havent made cookies. I mean I have been trying to lose weight forever, I work out 4 days a week and still nada...so really I should probably try avoiding cookies instead of chasing after them.

Scrappin' Stuff

Layout I put together using Mother's Day pics from a couple of years ago. yeah... i am always behind. Its American Crafts paper...Queen and Co, brads and flowers...if ya care about such details. Its a little blurry, as I scanned it and stitched it together... i can never get that to work just right.

I am so in love with this kid!

He loves that his hands can be considered weapons! Oh and he wants you to know thats his old belt...he is a "gold" belt now!

Sick

ugh, sick,sick, sick!!! I thought I was hung over... (I may or may not have partaken in quite a bit of vodka at a very wild party over the weekend) but no its not a hang over, its some kind of horrid cold, sore throat, stuffy head, runny nose thing! My voice is going too. At least once its gone I can stay home from work. Of course it will probably just hang in there enough for me to make it to Friday. Suppose to take a cycle class tonite to. Definitely need to get the exercise in after i went on a chocolate binge yesterday. Anyway thats my Monday, hope yours is going better!

52 Layouts- Number 2

These are my babies reading on the couch yesterday. The boy loves the girl to read to them. i love how they look all cuddled on the couch.

Ok so today I was tagged by Tezra.
I was just thinking I needed something to talk about

The rules of the game:
• Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
• Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself on your blog, we all want to know them.
• Tag 7 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
• Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Seven facts about myself….

1. I was kicked out of church choir at the age of 11 because "my voice was not pleasing". I have not sung in public since. In fact the only people who have heard me sing since are my kids and husband.

2. I can draw pretty well, but I need to look at a picture or the actual thing while I am drawing. I dont draw very well from memory. I am a pretty good painter too, but again I need a visual.

3. I am 34 and I feel OLD. I do not believe that crap about 40 being the new 20.

4. I teach science and I LOVE it.

5. I hate math. I still have math anxiety.

6. I love cats. I have 5 cats, 6 if you count the one the neighbor abandoned that I still feed.

7. I have never smoked a cigarette. My own brother wont believe me but its true.

I think the rest of the rules required me to tag someone....but well, I am tired so I am just gonna say...if you wanna be tagged leave me a comment and tell me your playing. I would love to come read all about you.

Winners!

Here are the winners of the RAK!
Inara
Nicole P.
Connie
Scraprageous

Please email (derbylea at mac.com) me your mailing info and I will get your stamps out right away. Congratulations!!

Last of the Christmas Shots

I just thought these were too cute not to post. Especially the boy. He loves that little guitar. He stands next to Mr.Iamderby while the Mr. is playing guitar hero. He thinks he is playing too. Too funny.

My First Ever RAK*

Welcome to my first ever RAK*. I picked up a few extra of these Mike's stamps (studio G, 1 dollar stamps...very popular over at CKMB) today on a quest for a new cricut cartridge. So here's what you do: leave me a message in the comments. You have until 11:00pm (PST) Monday (January 7) to leave me a comment. I will put all the names in a hat and draw 4 lucky internets to receive one of the stamp packs pictured. I will post winners on Tuesday. Make sure you check back, so you can send me your information if you are a winner! Good luck!

*RAK= random act of kindness

52 Layouts

So Erica (see her here) had the great idea to take one photo a week, make one LO a week and then post it. I think this is the perfect motivation to stop scrap shopping so much and get to scrapbook making. So heres my first LO. Now technically these are some old photos...but I just downloaded and edited them..so I am counting them. After this I will take a new one each week. Oh and this LO is for last week.

Are these not the cutest jars ever? I bought them for my new shelf... to store ribbon and other scrapbooking goodies. I got them at Ikea and they were a steal at 2.99 for a set of 4. I simply had to have three sets.
Speaking of Ikea... they have fabulous deals but why, for the love of G*d to they have to include the most horrible instructions ever for putting together their furniture? We bought a new desk/hutch thing for our desktop computer. It was very simple in design but the instructions...OMG the instructions! All the instructions are pictorial, there is not a single word on them. They always show an uphappy little dude in the beginning... yeah he is me. I nearly had a mental breakdown putting that thing together last night. Not to mention it took hours... as in 5 hours!! It was the most frustrating thing ever. I dont think I will be buying anymore furniture items there!

Duncan

My new cat Duncan is quite the scaredy cat. He has mostly hidden under my bed since his arrival to our family on December 9th. Finally he has decided to venture downstairs! He has such soft fur and a great purr its too bad he spends most of his time under my dusty bed. He has been coming down the past week to eat and get a drink of water. Previously he had only been sneaking down in the middle of the night. I am hoping soon he wont feel the need to run under the bed whenever we make a sudden movement.

Scrap Corner

I give you some pics of my "new" scrapping corner. "New" in that even though the corner was already there it wasn't inhabited by this table or these things on the wall. The big wall shelf (in the corner) I had already taken possession of earlier in the year. The table is a gate leg table so it folds up nicely, yet is very sturdy... it used to be behind the couch as a sofa table. The wall shelves all were in the house previously with the exception of the big white one.
That is the new making memories embellishment center. This thing retails for 80$. I did not pay 80$. If I had I would have been sorely disappointed because while I really like this shelf it is not very well put together, the painting appears to have been done by 5 year olds for one thing. The back has a few hair line cracks and the wood(? not sure if its actual wood) working is definitely subpar. I got it for 40$ so I think 40 is a reasonable amount for a shelf of this quality. It was a huge PITA to hang on the wall but I did it all by myself.
On the table is my new cricut, which I am quickly learning to love. Also on the table is my OTT lite which I am not certain how I ever lived without. That thing puts out so much light.
Overall I am pretty happy with the set up. Now I know that a decorator would probably be choking over my combo scraproom/formal living room but I dont care. And really how formal of a room can you have with two children running amuck, jumping on sofas, dancing on tables (Fun daddy lets them do these things NOTme!) and cats scratching up my clearance PB slipcovers? Anyway I am thrilled with it and have been happily scrapping there for the last few days.

Bake Much?

My kids love to make cookies. Here is our gingerbread extravaganza from last week. I think I have made at least 500 cookies in the last month. So I am done for awhile. I dont plan on baking another cookie until Valentines day. On V day I might make some heart shaped sugar cookies. I did try a new recipe this past christmas, it was a chocolate cookie with an andes mint melted on the top. Oh it was so good! Anybody else out there like to bake? Whats your favorite cookie?

Scrappin' Stuff

Finally busted through the scrappers block and made some new pages. These hi light our year (2007). It actually took 4 pages but I am too lazy to wait for blogger to upload all four.

I made myself a scrapbook corner in our living room, I am sure some interior decorator would call it atrocious but I am happy I have a spot to work that is not the dining room table. I have so many supplies now, I truely need a room but unless one of these kids decides to skip jr high, highschool and most of elementary school and head straight to college, I am stuck with the corner for at least a few more years. Someday we will be able to buy a bigger house but today I am thankful for what I do have.